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name something in our lives that isn't weird.

what's the other stuff?

Dont laugh at me for this

dude c'mon I'm not a total asshole

No I dont think you are
didnt*

I just uh
never told anybody this. Guess there wasnt really a reason to, but

I kind of am not really into
Stuff? Like I dont mind it but I never

Yknow
WANT it.

oh

[GIVE HIM A MINUTE that's really hard for him to comprehend so he doesn't want to say anything wrong by accident.]

if you don't like to do it, I can take care of her, uh

needs

she'd understand if you talked to her

[Legit that gigantic pause is almost as stressful as fighting Sephiroth and ALMOST almost as stressful as trying to tell Aerith he's not into it]

No like I dont hate it seriously and
Yknow its good when we do. Its definitely not BAD I just

Dont ever think about doing it. Me and her talked

And its WEIRD.
Cuz shes gorgeous. So I should want to.

And she asked me if it was because of all the crap we went through and I couldnt tell her no because I dont know.

[oof, getting deep in it. his reply is not quick.]

yeah I can't really tell you no either. never came up before all that. it'd be an easy thing to blame on.

I guess the only one who might know is you... d'you remember enough to know how you felt before you left home?

actually more importantly do you CARE what caused it? like does it bother you or is it just because you think you SHOULD feel that way

Everythings so blurry

I had a huge crush on Tifa back home before leaving. And when we went back, I remember that. But all that time in between is just like its

I dont know.

It bothers me cuz I DONT know, yknow? Theres so much crap I should know that other people have already figured out. Feels like everybody else is halfway thru the race while Im still at the gate

man

we are so unqualified to deal with this shit on our own

[which is probably the closest he'll get to admitting he's fucked up too HEY]

I will say, though, it aint a race. you don't have to like sex any more than I gotta like cake

I mean I do

like cake

and sex

look I'm bad at this and I don't get it but I think it's fine