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[wingenvy]

She's gone. Again.

I'm not okay.

Sh-shit, I shouldn't have--

[And this would be Zack flailing and attempting to erase the entry, because god forbid he be unhappy for a few seconds. Deletion failed, everything's visible. \o]

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

I know. Trust me, I know.

Zack, you...do you need anything? Can I help?

[wingenvy]

I don't know, man. This situation's got me messed up in the head... not sure if I wanna say too much and regret it later.

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

I...think I know what you mean. But you-

Well, I never pictured you having that problem. You know you can say whatever you want to me, right?

[wingenvy]

I don't think I did, either.

... I know. I...

Shit, man, I might be in the same boat as you.

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

Zack?

[wingenvy]

I'm... not in love with her anymore, Spike.

It feels so wrong.

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

You...

But the last time she was here, you-

I mean-

...really...?

[wingenvy]

Yeah, but... if I really loved her, I'd feel worse, right?

Right now I'm just resigned. Like it's no big deal. I'll miss her, sure... it's...

I don't know.

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

...Do you think it's because this has happened before...?

[wingenvy]

Maybe. This is the third time, y'know? A guy can only take so much. And it's not like we even got the relationship started again anyway...

I don't have a future for her anymore, Cloud.

Blame the event.

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

Stop saying that! Damn it Zack!

You too.

[wingenvy]

.... Sorry.

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

...what's it gonna take?

Don't you believe me?

[wingenvy]

I--

Spike, I'm trying... I am. I know you'll do your damndest to bring me back. I just don't know what I have to offer anyone when I can't make any promises.

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

I'm the one making the promise.

[wingenvy]

...I know.

Heh... eventually you'll drill it into my head, Spike.