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[wingenvy]

CLOUD GAVE ME HIS CHICOBO AND SHE IS THE CUTEST THING EVER.

Whoever did those secret-Santa deliveries went and left me my old dogtags, too. Wonder what made them pick the stuff they gave out?

Ah well, worry about it later. Tammy's hungry. ♥

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[Private; Voice]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

...it's...hard.

Now that I remember. Because I remember the dogtags when I found them, in the dirt-

And...and I remember them...around your neck as you ran- In the wind, on the bike, and in the rain, and- they were red, and-...

[Private; Voice]

[wingenvy]

...I know. I told you it wouldn't be easy.

But I'm alive now. Try to focus on that, okay...?

[Private; Voice]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

...you said-

You said don't think about it. Right? You said don't think about it, whenever you can. I don't think that's-...Zack I really don't think I should ignore...this. These.

[Private; Voice]

[wingenvy]

...Is there something going on that you're not telling me about?

[Private; Voice]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

[Biiiiiig, long pause, and then a whisper.]



...yes.

[Private; Voice]

[wingenvy]

[Okay Spike that was kinda creepy.]

So are you gonna tell me?

[Private; Voice]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

I dunno.

[Private; Voice]

[wingenvy]

....... Why?

[Private; Voice]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

Why what?

[Private; Voice]

[wingenvy]

Why wouldn't you tell me?

[Private; Voice]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

...I'm not crazy, Zack. Okay? Just...right off, I'm not crazy.

[Private; Voice]

[wingenvy]

You're driving me crazy with all this dodging.

[Private; Voice]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

I'm serious.

[Private; Voice]

[wingenvy]

I don't think you're crazy, Cloud.

[Private; Voice]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

...I...

...I dunno if...Jenova's voice I'm hearing...is in my memories, or is just...thoughts I'd think she'd have.

[Private; Voice]

[wingenvy]

....But you can hear her?

[Private; Voice]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

No.

She's not here.

[Private; Voice]

[wingenvy]

Does it sound like her? Or your own head?

[Private; Voice]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

I don't-

I dunno. I don't know anymore, and...but it has to be me, because she's not here, right? She's just in my memories.

[Private; Voice]

[wingenvy]

She's not here. We'd know if she was here.

[Private; Voice]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

Right.

Right. So this...is just me. Just in my head, so it's not...bad, or anything. Just memories and stress.

[Private; Voice]

[wingenvy]

Exactly. I know it's rough to fight your own head, Spike, but it'd be worse if it was more than that. We can do this, right? We can damn well do anything.

[Private; Voice]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

...you're right. We can do anything.

[Private; Voice]

[wingenvy]

....

[Private; Voice]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Zack. I'll be all right.

Let me know if you need any help with Tammy.